I Live in a Third World Country Called Idaho

 Hello everyone. Today I had three really bad seizures and had to have my Mom use emergency injections on me. She has to give me one in each thigh and it hurts like a mofo. Each needle has to stay in me for ten seconds to deliver the emergency medication. I have been down all day due to this and my legs hurt like hell. It takes me a few days to recover from this on top of the seizures themselves. I'm lucky the emergency meds worked. Sometimes they don't and I have to be airlifted out by helicopter which takes about 20 minutes to get here. Meanwhile, I am still having seizures, losing oxygen to my brain. I don't have the luxury of the type of ambulances and immediate response here that I would in Denver. The ambulance here can only offer me oxygen and most of the time they just sort of toss a mask at me so that it's near me and tell me to try to get some of the oxygen. They're afraid to get near me. I have had concussions in dealing with the emergency care here because they don't know how to deal with me. That is why it is REALLY important that I get back to Denver. Where I am now is literally like being in a third world country regarding health care. I am not kidding or exaggerating. I could tell you a million stories to back this up and if you want to hear them, feel free to ask. To date, there have been 533 visits to my GoFundMe site and only five people have decided to donate. If each of those 533 people had put in JUST 5 or 10 dollars, I would be either so close to my goal I could touch it or OVER my goal. Please. I'm asking for your help in whatever way you can.

There are amazing incentives up for grabs on the GoFundMe site or you can just chuck some change in to help.  Even if you can't afford to help, please forward this on to someone who might be able to. Epilepsy is not spoken about at all and yet it affects millions of people worldwide with no cure in sight.

Please share on your Facebook, your Twittah...anything. Once I get back to Denver, I will be able to start writing about my adventures again and give you something to read. Let's pull together!

Dear Readers, I Need Your Help

I know I don't post often and yet, for some reason, you still read. For that, I thank you. I just don't have much inspiration right now because I live in a very dull place. It's not inspiring. They don't even know what Daleks are. I mean, come on.
So, I need your help and anyone you can gather together. Let's get an army together. I'm posting a widget thing here for your perusal. I need to get back to Denver. To my life. Where all the funny, awesome things happen that inspire me. But also for better health care. I'll leave it up to the widget thing to explain. (I hope it works. I'll test it out to make sure you can see it. Quality control always!) Thanks for reading and thanks in advance for your help.

Here's the link to the actual page as well:  http://www.gofundme.com/73ua7w

I Like Big Cakes

Note: I just unearthed this as a message that I sent to a guy on OkCupid a few years ago. I painstakingly took the lyrics to "I Like Big Butts" to make cakes the theme because the guy liked cake. It took forever. No response from the recipient. If anyone ever asks me why I'm single again, I'll say it's because no one appreciates things like this. And, things like this...are AWESOME.

Oh, my, god. Becky, look at her cake.
It is so big. Yum! It looks like,
one of those rap guys' cupcakes.
But, yum! Y'know, who understands those rap guys? Wendy!
They only talk to her, because,
she looks like a total Cakemaker, 'kay?
I mean, her cakes, are just so tasty. Yum!
I can't believe it's just so round, it's like,
out there, I mean uh! Yum. Look!
It's just so ... cakey!

I like big cakes and I cannot lie
You other brothers can't deny
That when a girl walks in with an itty bitty cake
And a round cake in your face
You get sprung, wanna pull up forks
'Cause you notice she's got plates
Deep in the jeans she's wearin'
I'm hooked and I can't stop starin'
Oh baby, that apron you're wearin'
I pause, take yo pictcha'
My homeboys tried to warn me
But that cake you got makes
Ooh, rub all of that buttercream
You say you wanna get in my Benz?
Well, cup me, cake me
'Cause you ain't that average groupy
I've seen her bakin'
T'hell with marinatin'
She's shake, make,
Got it goin' like a Easy Bake
I'm tired of onion rings
Sayin' cupcakes are the thing
Take the average cake fan and ask him that
She gotta pack much cake
So, fellas! (Yeah!) Fellas! (Yeah!)
Has your girlfriend got the cake? (Hell yeah!)
Tell 'em to bake it! (Shake it!) bake it! (Shake it!)
Bake that tasty cake!
Baby got cake!

(LA cake with a Oakland frosting)
Baby got cake!
(LA cake with a Oakland frosting)

I like 'em round, and big
And when I'm throwin' a gig
I just can't help myself, I'm actin' like an animal
Now here's my scandal
I wanna get you home
And ugh, double-up, ugh, ugh
I ain't talkin' bout Betty Crocker
'Cause mixed cakes are made for jerks
I want 'em real thick and moist
So find that frosted double
Mix-a-Lot's in trouble
Beggin' for a piece of that frosted perk
So I'm lookin' at Food Network
Rachel Rae teasin', frostin' with shows
You can have them bimbos
I'll keep my women with their cakes 'n plates
A word to the cake bakin' sistas, I wanna get with ya
I won't cuss or hit ya
But I gotta be straight when I say I wanna (caaaaake)
Til the break of dawn
Baby get it goin' on
A lot of SIMPS won't like this song
'Cause them punks like to hit it and quit it
And I'd rather stay and play
'Cause I'm long, and I'm strong
And I'm down to get the dessert on
So, ladies! {Yeah!} Ladies! {Yeah}
If you wanna role in my Mercedes {Yeah!}
Then turn around! Cake it out!
Even lame boys got to shout
Baby got cake!

Baby got cake!
Yeah, baby ... when it comes to females, Martha ain't got nothin'
to do with my selection. Ganache? Ha ha, only if shes got a warm cake ready right now.

So your girlfriend rolls a Honda, playin' workout tapes by Fonda
But Fonda ain't got a cupcake in the back of her Honda
My anaconda don't want none
Unless you got cakes, hun
You can do side bends or sit-ups,
But please don't lose that cake
Some brothers wanna play that "hard" role
And tell you that the cake AIN'T gold
So they toss it and leave it
And I pull up quick to retrieve it
So that guy says he's vegan
I'll take the cupcake he's leavin'*
'Cause your waist is small and your curves are kickin'
And I'm thinkin' bout stickin'
To the chocolate cakes in the double ovens:
Your cakes are it, Miss Thing!
Give me frosting, I can't resist her
The spatula and bowl didn't miss her
Some knucklehead tried to diss
'Cause her cakes are on his list
He had game but he chose to leave 'em
And I pull up quick to eat 'em
So ladies, if the cake is round,
And you want a triple decker throw down,
Dial 1-900-MIXALOT
And kick them cakey thoughts
Baby got cake!
Baby got cake!

The Fly Entourage (Revised)

 

This is an auto-biographical piece I wrote a couple years ago during a serious bout with depression.  I found it in a notebook this morning when I was getting ready to go on a bike ride to my local coffee shop and write a letter with some coffee and breakfast. I read it and I felt it was a gift I had found it.  When one is in such a dark place there is no describing it to anyone.  Sometimes even yourself. I know a lot of people have or do suffer from similar things or are even on the road to recovery.  I thought I would share this as I recover and see the sun brightly at the end of the tunnel.  I know there may be times when I need to look back and read this, knowing I found some way to write down a description.  If I was able to do that, I know I had strength I was not aware of which is a miracle.  The real miracle, though, is we all have that inside us and maybe this will remind us all of that.  (I have revised it slightly compared to the one I found already posted on my blog. The slight difference is something maybe only I find interesting but maybe you will too.)

The flies were fat and slow as they buzzed and hopped seemingly everywhere the woman chose to put each part of her body.  They buzzed slowly past her ear and sh could almost decipher what they were going on about as she wiggled her fingers constantly to shoo them away.  In fact, it seemed, they would have landed on her eyes if it were possible.  Even if this were possible, today they would have had only room to peer through the slits her eyes had become.

She peered back at them, the flies’ kaleidoscope of vision seeing only a rainbow of dents, dings and slippage in her normally bright soul. If the fly blinked, which they rapidly did, it would create a fantastic slide show of what was stuck in her throat, sinking her hear and creating a slow anesthetic around her otherwise compulsive optimism.

It was beautifully horrible and just the thing a fly would enjoy.

It was for this reason each of her co-workers, family members and a few acquaintances secretly were happy to see her.  No one said anything about it to each other.  It was not something that came up on the phone, over coffee or as a subject in a sentence starting with, “Didja’ happen to notice?” No, it was a strange and no one mentioned it in polite company. 

The woman smelled of spiced oranges with luxurious dark hair that grew with the seasons as they changed.  Thus, the fly entourage had no explanation to the naked eye or even the human eye.  To the fat fly’s eye, who fed on garbage and mated with the discarded, the cinematic kaleidoscope they saw in the woman’s eyes was dinner and an ever rotating porn flick.

In such mundane moments as when the lights went off at night or when she lifted cream soup to her mouth and blew on it, people did wonder why the woman didn’t do anything about it.  On the other hand, maybe she was working so hard to do something this was the minimal amount of flies she could keep from invading her space at a time.  Maybe if she did nothing at all, she would be lost inside a cloud of flies  and meet an unfortunate end from the task of pest control chemicals so strong she couldn’t breathe anymore. When the cloud cleared and they back to clean up the fly carcasses they would find her bloated body covered in flies like family weeping over her in still-life, kissing her eyes.

No one thought about it for long.  Even the strangest of things become less so the longer they are a part of your life. They develop a purpose.  The woman and the Fly Entourage were no different.  The flies had been around her since she was three and yes, she had spent increasing efforts to deter them until it consumed her life and there was room for nothing as a result of even the few flies remaining by the third decade of her life.

Geraldo's Mustache of Truth

I keep seeing these ads on Facebook encouraging people to go on cruises. The ad has a clever tag that says, "Click if you like vacations!" Who doesn't like vacations? I like a lot of things so I am honest with Facebook about what I like. I went to click that I, indeed, like vacations when I noticed two very important things. 1) It was an ad for a cruise line.  2) A beloved family member had already clicked that they had liked vacations and thus, that they had liked the cruise line and may already be in danger of being sucked into going on a cruise where they may meet their demise and not have their death reported simply because CRUISE LINES DO NOT HAVE TO DO THAT! And they don't. Do you know why?  They don't want to be the cruise line that is equivalent of the Titanic. They want to be the HAPPY FUN TIME STUFF YOU WITH FOOD AND WHOA LOOK AT OUR CASINOS AND SWIMMING POOLS AND YEAH WE'RE GOING TO SENOR FROGS cruise line.

But I'm not buying it. Not for all the Bon Voyage streamers in the world.

Mind you, I would totes get in a cage and look at sharks, knowing full well I might lose a hand. However, there are people on that boat I feel safe with and that should I become a shark snack (I'm not really a dinner), they have to march back to their superiors and the police and file Shark Snack papers. Also, I'm pretty sure this would make the news and Jon Stewart would make a joke about my death on the Daily Show, which is pretty rad.

But I digress.

The Fort Lauderdale Sun-Sentinel reports, "While crime is rare on cruise ships, justice for those victimized on the vacation voyages can be elusive due to overlapping investigative powers, difficulty obtaining evidence and witnesses, and a lack of sworn officers aboard ships." See! I may have first seen and gasped at this horror while on a late-night insomnia binge of news from Geraldo Riviera (Is that even his last name?) some years ago but I have since followed it up from "reliable" news sources. You know. Ones that don't crack open vaults of mobsters and get hit by chairs.

I have quietly bitten my nails as other loved ones have gone on cruises and, on the other end of the spectrum, chuckled to myself as despised co-workers announced a two-week cruise to ...I don't know...some Senor Frog destination.

The fact is I have also seen those movies where people have to turn into Indiana Jones in an instant when the ship starts to go down. Pianos are turning over, chandeliers are lighting on fire, people are traversing pipes and swinging on wires. The intense music alone makes me nuts! I'm a survivor in many ways, people, but if I was somehow drugged and woke up on a cruise ship with only the savory and delicious buffets to survive on, I know that if something happened I would not be the people crawling through vents and doing crazy acrobatic stunts to get out of a ship. In fact, I would be the one to go, "Ok well. I told you this would happen," and swallow a cyanide pill. The heroic people could use my dead body to slide to safety or to build a raft. I'm even okay if they use my stiff corpse to fight off villains. There are always villains. I would embroider permission on the front of all my clothing with a cute little boat next to the words so it would still be stylish.

I know many people in the entertainment industry find jobs on cruises.  I'm not trying to kill an economy here. In fact, at one point when I was still naive about cruise lines, I thought, "Hey, I could make a lot of cash working on a cruise ship and see the world!"  And then I saw the light that Geraldo's Mustache of Truth shined.  Cruise lines don't like you. They don't even have real "officers." I mean, I could be an officer.  I could get a jet boat and have a picnic and call it a cruise line.  The only difference is that I would have to report deaths because I wouldn't be able to get out into international waters.  Oh, and I'd be cheaper too.  It would still be a vacation, though. Which we all like.

My Mom Refuses to Read Anymore Today!

"I know I'm angry.  As my FBI Forensic Psychologist Husband put it last night while I was cooking dinner in our historic Cambridge home that was built by a well-known Transcendentalist, 'You're being tricked, Kay." -Patricia Cornwell from her book, "Red Mist" that my Mom is currently reading.  In fact, she came into the guest room in which I am currently lounging to specifically read this sentence.

Thank goodness she did this because I was struggling for a segue into what I wanted to write about: writing. Yes, writing!

I'm aware I haven't posted since May but thank goodness for you, I happened to listen to a podcast interview with my friend, Ben Loory  on Brad Listi's blog, "Other People." I then thought to myself, I should really start blogging again. I'll make a blog tomorrow. Apparently, I already have one I abandoned for several months so I'm letting it rise from the ashes of my memory like a feeble Phoenix.

This is an illustration of how my mind usually works, which is why my blogging tends to save us all a lot of hassle.

Now. You may be saying, "Wendy, why didn't you make easy to click links to all of these references?"  And I say to you, "I tried but it just made two whole blog posts that were linked to Ben's interview and Ben's new book marked BEN LOORY and that seemed a little creepy." Why, two? It's a mystery. So Google them until I figure it out.  I mean for you to use Google and not Bing because Bing sucks. But I digress.

My friend, BEN LOORY, speaks about his writing methods in the podcast.  Part of it is about being in the present and letting the story happen to the reader.  Too much background or any at all, really, according to Ben, is unnecessary and takes away from the experience of being immersed.  A little background about Ben and I: one time, a few years ago, I almost went to visit him but I became very sick and was unable to fly for two years. I also belonged to the bird club where he lives via the internets and tried to sell homemade post cards to benefit it and a man who lived in the park.  I failed but the point is I tried.

See what I did there? No? Okay.

I was pretty inspired by the interview with Ben. It helped me come to terms with the different ways that I write. I'm okay. Ben's okay. You're okay. Patricia Cornwell is not okay. As a writer. I'm sure she's a super nice person.  Yes, I am scared of Patricia Cornwell and her lack of staying in the present but more than that, I am terrified of not knowing what she was being tricked into because of all the damn background information about her fancy house and husband.

As Ben once said to me, "I always like to end on an up note," and I have taken that to heart.  Thus, I end  this blog post in the present.  Here we go.

My Mom just announced from the other room, "That's it. I refuse to read anymore today."
Thanks, Patricia!  Now I can get her to make more tiny cheesecakes.

What is Lube?

[Names changed because I like making up new names for people]

The other day I was rather tired and decided to go for a quick bike ride over to my friend [Otto]'s house. Normally, I don't drop in on people as I am not a fan of the drop-in but it seemed okay because [Otto] was making some baked beans and coming over in an hour anyway. Plus his phone sucks and if I called he wouldn't get the message until like a week later so it seemed useless to call. EXCEPTION TO THE RULE CARD PLAYED.

What you should know is that [Otto] was actually banned from my house for a small period of time.
When I first moved into my cool ass house, which I refuse to post photos of because you'll only want to come steal it in the middle of the night, [Otto] would drop in constantly and tell me it was going to burn down and myself and my cats were in severe danger. The reasons varied depending on what he saw and what day it was but essentially I was living in a death trap and if Bruce Willis didn't show up and explode out of the window in a mushroom cloud of fire at any moment, it was a miracle.
Some time passed and it was whispered to [Otto] by a family member that he may get chopped up and tossed into the compost pile if he didn't chill the fuck out because said house is just fine and makes me happy as a clam with glitter glued to its face. Things were okay for awhile as in it was okay that [Otto] was distracted by some skunks that lodged themselves under his bathroom for awhile and that became a large part of his life. They would have skunk parties under his bathroom and he couldn't sleep so he took to napping a lot during the day.

Fast forward to when I lurched to a stop on my Mom's bike the other day in [Otto's] driveway. I knocked on his door and could smell his baked beans cooking but [Otto] seemed confused as to why I was there. It was not particularly unusual, really. In fact he usually invites me in, tries to give me plant clippings and what not. That day, he wandered around his yard and was musing aloud randomly and then when I casually mentioned the bike I was riding was making a clicking sound he went into his MUST FIX MODE. I didn't really have time for him to do a full bike tune-up that was not necessary and was just stopping by to say "Hey hey" on my ride but I was forced off of the bike and stood there seething as he held up a can of Acme Bike Lube, proclaiming loudly as though I were a foreigner, "THIS IS BIKE LUBE."

It was at this point that I started wondering what would happen if I just strangled him with the bike chain. Could they trace it bike to this bike? No. No. It's my Mom's bike. Don't get her into that kind of trouble. She's a kind soul. What if I just cracked him on the head with...that shitty bike pump? It never works and it could be explained away as a drunken injury. Hmm.

It was announced after I wrested the bike away from him that he was going to take a nap. Mind you, he and his Magic Beans were supposed to be arriving in less than an hour and he just announced a snooze-fest. I was actually alternately okay with this and mildly pissed. I hate when people are not courteous so that was the main pisser there. Otherwise...WHAT. EVER.

But [Otto] did show up. Two hours late. As people were leaving. So of course we all sat down and ate a bunch of damn beans. Then a half hour later other said people, [Dude and Dude's Son], left and my Mom mentioned the beeping/F2 warning on her really expensive dishwasher. I'm sure you can envision what happened next. [Otto] decided to have a half hour look at it before my Mom herded him out to the yard where I am told he took charge of the fire pit and dug up some shit because our fire wasn't just fine the way it was. He also checked that she had turned the propane off on the BBQ as he was leaving because my Mom is a total firebug. It's well-known. There's photos of her at the propane places around the county.

At this point, I was just laying on my Mom's futon in some sort of cross-eyed fury where I was trying to figure out the cheapest locale for socks and oranges in bulk. In my head I was going to construct a Rube Goldberg-esque machine that constantly pummels [Otto] until he is broken of his habits to compulsively fix shit that isn't broken or if it is...no one asked him to take up our entire lives to inspect it and go off on tangents about how he's lived here for over ten years and ....zzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
Either this post will make you want to kill me (and I won't judge you for that) or you will completely understand. Maybe you even know [Otto] and you understand.